tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4418370942689142295.post569955442183448028..comments2021-11-28T21:01:49.150-06:00Comments on Nothing Without You: I can't do this. RaeAnnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07395752119260663982noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4418370942689142295.post-49304997722444125432013-03-25T15:25:29.397-05:002013-03-25T15:25:29.397-05:00Having 26 of those birthdays pass by now... I will...Having 26 of those birthdays pass by now... I will tell you that YOU CAN do it. In time it will get easier, but it takes A LOT of time. Please try to focus on filling your life with things that can make you happy... it is the only way you will find your way out of this and beyond. I lost my husband the year after I lost my Nathan, those were some very dark years. Find something to give yourself to, it is not an injustice to Samuel, he wants you to feel whole again and to heal. I just know it. <br /><br />I had to wait 14 years after my Nathan died before I held my Benjamin, who is now 12 as of the date you wrote this. While he does not take the place of my first son, all that love I had been holding onto and couldn't give my first baby felt SO GOOD to give to Ben. I hope some day that you might be ready to love another baby and that God blesses you, it seems like you have so much Mommy love in you to give. Healing and TRYING to let go of the pain is the only way, it does not mean forgetting or pretending that the hole isn't there, it means going on in spite of it. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01534851256467922750noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4418370942689142295.post-40123715020953217692013-03-24T13:07:28.707-05:002013-03-24T13:07:28.707-05:00Thank you, Lisa <3. I saw how much people suppo...Thank you, Lisa <3. I saw how much people supported you and loved you guys and it made me hopeful that people will remember our Samuel too. <br /><br />I have such a hard time keeping myself in the moment. You're right, it's easier when I do. <br /><br />Happy Birthday sweet little Finley <3 <3RaeAnnehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07395752119260663982noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4418370942689142295.post-86316507161065696162013-03-24T13:05:38.520-05:002013-03-24T13:05:38.520-05:00Thank you so much <3. You are a sweet friend.Thank you so much <3. You are a sweet friend.RaeAnnehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07395752119260663982noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4418370942689142295.post-32766799780854931762013-03-24T10:30:08.405-05:002013-03-24T10:30:08.405-05:00Oh sweetie. The lead up was horrible. I hope tha...Oh sweetie. The lead up was horrible. I hope that Samuel's birthday is as lovely for you as Finley's was for me. He wasn't there and that was SO HARD, but people remembered and people cared, and I felt so incredibly blessed. <br /><br />It's hard when you think of it in terms of forever. So try to live in the moment on Samuel's day. Remember him and celebrate him and somehow you will make it through.<br /><br />Big hugs sweetie xxxxAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11156015722355587810noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4418370942689142295.post-28196941776837140542013-03-23T12:21:50.565-05:002013-03-23T12:21:50.565-05:00I'm so sorry RaeAnne... I know exactly how you...I'm so sorry RaeAnne... I know exactly how you feel mama. I'll be keeping you and Samuel in my thoughts & prayers as his special day approaches. It is so hard to "celebrate" milestones and birthdays knowing they can't be here. Please let me know if there's anything I can do to make his birthday a little gentler on you <3Catherinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13860870910413734703noreply@blogger.com